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Yesterday I noticed a fresh clover bloom in the ditch along the road in front of the house. That seems out of season, as do the two seed heads on the dandelion stems. I have no idea what’s going on in the natural(?) world, and, if we insist on including humans as part of nature, we’ve just made nature more unnatural, haven’t we? Do you find the relationship between humans and nature confusing? depressing? I do, too often.
Then again, I was today year’s old when I learned about "dark matter and dark energy, which together make up 95% of the universe but their natures are almost entirely mysterious...” To clarify, I knew of the existence of dark matter and energy, but not that they made up 95% of the universe. For that matter [couldn’t resist, sorry], how do we, how can we, know that dark matter and energy are the only other components of the universe? Or, perhaps they’re just generic terms for what we don’t know?
Do you remember Don Rumsfeld’s wonderful quote about:
“There are known knowns, things we know that we know; and there are known unknowns, things that we know we don't know. But there are also unknown unknowns, things we do not know we don't know.”
We seem to have reached a point at which the unknown unknowns are growing rapidly. I do know that we went and voted this morning. It will remain unknown for some time how the election turned out and it will be even longer before we learn what the election results result in. Personally, I found the world and the universe more comfortable and reassuring before we learned just how much we don’t know we don’t know. Then, again, I spent many adult years thinking “meaning” is something that exists outside ourselves that we’re here to go find. Then I realized that meaning is like the future, it’s something we create with every single one of our actions at every moment of every day.
Human Knowledge
About the only thing I thought I knewwas that nothing I’d ever know would doany good. Sunrise, say, or that the partof the horse’s hoof that most resemblesa human palm is called the frog;certain chords on the guitar of no mercantile use;the abstruse circuitry of an envelopequatrain; even the meaning of horripilation.Sometimes on a flatland mound the ancients had made,I took heart in the pointlessness of starsand lay there until my teeth chattered.I earned my last Boy Scout merit badgebuilding a birdhouse out of license platesmanufactured by felons in the big house.No more paramilitary organizations for me,I said, ten years before I was drafted.I had skills. Sure-footedness and slickfielding. Eventually I would learn to unhooka bra one-handed, practicing on my friend,his sister's worn over his T-shirt (I tookmy turns too). One Easter Sunday I hidthrough the church service among the pipesof the organ and still did not have faith,although my ears rang until Monday.I began to know that little worth knowingwas knowable and faith was delusion.I began to believe I believed in believingnothing I was supposed to believe in,except the stars, which, like me,were not significant, except for their light,meaning I loved them for their pointlessness.I believed I owned them somehow.A C major 7th chord was beautiful and almost rare.The horse I loved foundered and had to beput down. The middle rhyme in an envelopequatrain was not imprisoned if it was right.In cold air a nipple horripilatesand rises, the sun comes up and up and up,a star that bakes the eggsin a Boy Scout license plate birdhouse.God was in music and music was God.A drill sergeant seized me by my dog tagchain and threatened to beat meto a pile of bloody guts for the peace signI’d chiseled in the first of my two tags,the one he said they’d leave in my mouthbefore they zipped the body bag closed.Yet one more thing I’d come to know.He also said that Uncle Sam owned my ass,no more true than my ownershipof the stars. I can play a C major 7th chordin five or six places on the neck of a guitar.A stabled horse’s frog degrades; a wild horse’sbecomes a callus, smooth as leather.Stars are invisible in rainy weather,something any fool knows, of course.
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